Lessons I've learned in loving someone deeply and losing them too
Author: Michelle Abdon
“I haven’t completely met myself yet”
I was talking to a loved one recently and asking them if they felt like they have a sense of self. They said very eloquently, “I haven’t completely met myself yet," and since that conversation I have been reflecting on my resonance in those words. One of the troubles with being in treatment for so [...]
10 lessons from the past season
Life is not a dress rehearsal Life still occurs even with our eyes closed Doing something at 40% capacity is still doing something 100% of the way We are not defined by our circumstance It’s possible to change the energy of a space or relationship A lesson will often repeat itself until it is learned [...]
Keeping your head above water
How I wish I could tell myself, the self from a month or two ago, that today would be a better day. How I wish I could remind myself that there are days like today filled with infinitely more joy than suffering, if only we allow it space to enter. Somewhere in between pain and [...]
Where’d all the time go
At one point, I was an eight year old girl daydreaming about owning my own credit card (big mistake), having my driver’s license, and living near an art museum. Oddly enough, all of these dreams have come to fruition, but the heaviness I carried in my childhood heart found its way to stay throughout the [...]
Conditional love in the chaos of unfamiliar times
“What good is love if it’s toxic?” I ask my therapist. “Perhaps it’s not love that’s toxic, but the expression of it that is.” I used to think that unconditional love was the greatest love. To love someone regardless of any action they do even if it’s against you and to love them fully and [...]
23 Lifetimes
Today marks my 23rd year of life. In reverence of that, I have been reflecting on my spiritual journey and all the ways it manifested whether through support with my healer or through soul-affirming dreams. A few days ago my healer told me, “Some souls find the same souls that they meet repeatedly throughout every [...]
The Isolation of COVID
We hail on recollection, memory guiding thought, thought guiding choice. When we look back at how we’ve learned to live, my mind struggles to accept that we are entering a new mode of life. The tensions between my expectations of the old while welcoming the new is causing a friction and dissonance in my life. [...]
Fear the change or embrace the opportunity
Will we fear for change or embrace the ambiguity of opportunity? I have been stuck in a self-made dilemma, to stay home or move out… Much of my anxiety around the latter is tied to my perfectionism of wanting everything to feel right and look right to be the “right” choice, but my good friend [...]
To This We Owe Ourselves
Dear Friend, We cannot claim the inheritance of stars and skies. The world was not created to charm us into certainty. This world is not our birthright. Nature’s grace moves swiftly and beautifully past us. We fold and unfold by the things that carry us. We build houses on hills, the fallacy of kings with [...]
This life is all we've got but maybe it's the best we've got too 